omg, its like a whirlwind inside of my head.. no seriously, its that bad. Aarrrgggghhhhh!! If life were as simple as my brain planned, lol.
I hate feelings that hide and jump back and get excited too quickly and randomly, and take ages to calm down and hide again, though only to repeat and to constantly give you cold sweats and blurring rushing minds.. not to mention shakes that prevent you from typing correctly the first five times.
Buts its just the fact that my thoughts have been revived that changed everything. I know it will take an extremely long period of time for these feelings to die off again. If they were never woken, then nothing would bother me and be of issue. And these feelings and symptoms of depression bring back too many memories.. which only make it worse. I'm not liking where any of this is taking me, and it seems as though I'm stuck in a box, with Shenna, Alice, Tracy and the rest of the world listening in from each wall. And at the moment, they are the world revolving around me..